Saturday, October 26, 2013

Growing up

Fish and bones
and black tar roads,
familiar faces and 
memories set in stones.
A distinct fragrance,
of palm trees tall,
swings and playground
 - my world was small.

Sea and sand,
they beckoned me - 
a wide-eyed speck
in a sky rise city.
Loss and religion,
riots and blasts,
the boy next door
 - etched the adolescent heart.

The search for a hero
brought me close to her
a peaceful home
to the heavens above.
Writer, dancer, 
actor, doctor - 
She set me free
 - to make my future.

And there I stood
a heart and a sole,
to begin my quest
for a new home.
To make friends
and write stories new,
to travel places
 - in search of you.




P.S. I have grown up (in fact still growing up) in many different places. And I have always wondered if each of these places have contributed in tweaking my personality in its own way. Would I be a different person if the order of these places in my life changed? Would I be different if instead of Mumbai, I had landed in Chennai? If instead of UK, I had chosen to go to the US? What would I be doing today? Would I be writing this article at all? Would I still be in search of a home? Would I still meet you?

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

The quest

Some lost, some found
some scattered, some bound
to the whole,
to the part,
to the finish, 
to my senselessly beating heart.

A shooting star, fading 
into the darkness, into space
out of sight,
still on my mind,
a tiny void, and
a fleeting wish.

Unspoken emotions,
spill fluidly
through these cracks,
revealing vapours of
tiny heartaches
and a few unknown facts.

Dividing me today,
into several pieces
that fight to come close,
fight to stay far,
and fight everyday,
unsure of what they are.

A strange attraction
then comes to play,
to a familiar face,
a forgotten name,
a lingering memory,
of a distant place.

Dreams and ambitions,
a powerful rhythm,
a wistful reminder,
of a painful addiction - 
- slice through me 
this invisible weapon.

Enemy and friend,
the illusion of freedom,
and the endless longing
for a home, for a soul - 
- an incomplete saga
of a happiness ever after.

           - Few pages from the story of my pointless quest.

Friday, October 4, 2013

A day of remembering

The beam shines over my retina,
I stare straight at that point,
            …it’s not a dream,
    instantly the saline releases,
I swallow with an aching throat while the scenes soar in my mind.
                What of he who conquered his world?
                    …all that’s left is…
                            …this…

Pity overwhelms the soul,
     Dreams of kings, of vagabonds and freedom…
… and yet…
           Those were just that… dreams
                         Fantasies…
                               Thoughts of the young mind… (I laugh).

There was never a king, nor a globetrotter…
     The leather jacket and booths were just that.
         
Today, the soft soles, the short hair… the cufflinks…
     That is closer to the kingship as there ever was… 
             For one thing, there is kin that was not there…

There are no more beams over my eyes…
No waking to the salty taste of a tear.
The world is as it should be.
And I…
     well…
          …well I’m as close to those dreams, as I’ll ever be…

…and will ever want to be.